Tummy Ache

So I have had digestive issues for years. I have cut a bunch of food groups out of my diet, but it just seems that no matter what I cut out I still always am sick! I'm sorry to complain about it, I usually don't except to Jordan because he is amazing and listens to me. But I have to say that no matter how much I try to patiently perceiver it is really frustrating.  I've given up so much (food wise), I've had tests, treatments. cleanses, diets, supplements, read books, gotten advise.... with only minimal and very short lived results. I have always felt that this is just something that I have to live with, that I have to do what I can to take care of myself, and figure it out. I still do believe that it is super important that we take good care of our bodies because we are the temple of the Holy Spirit. but I think I have gotten so stuck on trying to fix it myself that I have somewhat left prayer and God's healing power out of it. I guess that I just feel like it's really not a very big deal to anyone but me and that I just have to deal with it myself. So lately I have been really trying to totally give it to God and believe that he wants to heal me. But I have to admit that I don't think my faith for something has ever been so low. I usually have no problem believing and having faith, but for some reason this is a hard one for me. I guess I have held on to it for to long and letting it go is a struggle. Not to mention the fact that in the last couple of weeks I have been struggling with this it has gotten significantly worse. It's not that I don't believe God Can heal me, I just struggle with does he Want to, or is he trying to teach me something through all this that I seem to be a really slow learner in. I don't know. I'm sorry to complain. I'm so tired of being sick all the time, of not knowing what it is that is causing it, of not wanting to eat, but knowing I have to, of feeling bad for not being able to put my best foot forward because I feel so horrible, of having to leave a restaurant after looking at the menu because there is nothing I can eat on it, of feeling bad when I cant eat what someone made for me. I'm so venting right now, I don't think I've ever gotten this all out at once before. I'm sorry. I know I am really a healthy person, and so many people out there suffer So much more. and I really have nothing to complain about. God is so good, so faithful, I am wonderfully and fearfully made. My body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, and Jesus burns with zeal for his temple. I am healed by His stripes. I will have faith. "Lord I believe, Help my unbelief". I really am sorry for complaining, but David wrote lots of complaining psalms, and I have to say that it does seem to help sort thoughts and feelings better than anything else. And I hate complaining, so this seems like a harmless way of doing it where no one is the victim and no one even has to read it.